Monday, September 04, 2006
so i'm really apologetic for being so irritated and frustrated for reading something that i maybe shouldn't even have bothered reading.yes, you're right. i AM happy that the cg has split, because then YES i won't be in the same cg as you anymore.yes, you're right. you don't and WILL NEVER understand why we cry because you don't have what we have.yes, you're right. you are in no position to say anything about us crying.yes, you're right, you're always right, you always HAVE to be right. but let me just say this. you're not the only one tired all the time. you're not the only one who gets sick. you're not the only one who can't make it to join outings sometimes.sorry to blatantly mention this here but so many times you just don't want to come. we all know that. we all know that plainly.people do MAKE efforts to come down, and they come down because they really sincerely want to.sometimes we don't know why CERTAIN people come. for attention, maybe? well i can't say for sure.so i'm sorry that we cried. and i'm sorry that we're that close. and i'm sorry that we just love each other so much and are so precious to each other.but like what i told my precious darlings, it doesn't matter, and we don't give a SHIT about who understands how we felt. and hey, nobody needs to.because our Jesus understands perfectly, and He comforts us perfectly. and yes, i don't care, but He loves us the most.yeahh, so i'm SO sorry if once again this is all my fault, that i'm the one being over sensitive, i'm the one who isn't trying hard enough to understand you, to be nice to you, to love you.but well, too bad. no, i really mean that.TOO BAD. you make me so tired of being nice to you. i can't even try to love you anymore. and that's scary.it scares me.i am pissed off now, really really pissed off.
/ long hot summer ;
